Written By Cash., – Official Contributor of The Crowned Series
Dear World…I don’t have the words…
I don’t have the words.
I don’t have the strength.
I don’t have the resources or the experience.
I am not equipped for this.
I am struggling.
Yet, I find myself struggling for a different reason than
Most. I look into the world and I see
Pain. Fear. Confusion.
And, my job is to hold all of that. All of it.
All of the time.
I am supposed to be the one who is all knowing.
Who sees, and hears, and feels, and fixes.
Yet I can not fix this and deep down, I know I don’t want to.
Today, I just want to be another human
Experiencing life and letting life take a hold of me.
Today, I just want to wake-up and know I don’t have
Any control. And, with that knowledge to live,
Effortlessly. Today, I am begging for release from
The need for me to be anything besides who I am.
I don’t want to watch the news, or hold a hand.
I don’t want to hear the silent screams of those who
Need to feel affirmed in their belief that everything
Will fall apart. Today, I just want to sit. Today, I just want to be.
Because, today I don’t have the words, or the strength,
Or the resources. I just have my silence.
I have my own strength.
I have the ability to just be.
And, today that has to be enough.
A Public Administration Worker
A Health Care Provider
A Service Industry Worker
– Cash, Official Contributor of The Crowned Series